i know i made the mistake...

yes,
i know i made a bad choice,
but you dont understand why i did it though,
i wish you would just hear me out about this,
i cheated on you,
i hate yself for it
but i broke up with the guy
Because i felt nothing between him and i
i didnt love him
like i love you
you dont understand how sorry i am
now i know for sure that you will never give me another chance
i dont know what was going through my head
but i did nothing bad with him
i swear
i wanted to tell you so bad!
but i was afreai that youwould hate me
now that i told you
you really do hate me
this was the reason why i broke up with you
it kept running through my head
i felt so bad
you dont believe me
i wish i could just rewind my life to that day
then my life wouldnt be dead
i know you have moved on
i say it to myself that i can too
but im just lying to me
i love you.